Posted by: Terry | September 23, 2014

Grieving tonight over the church and my friends

“A time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance…”

Tonight finds me weeping and mourning.

I grieve at the pain that is pervasive in my friends, my family, and the church. Jesus prayed that we might be one as he and the Father are one. Yet the evil one succeeds in dividing and causing pain.

Friends of mine that I served God with so many years ago are divorcing, the pain they have experienced hurts me deeply. A contentious brother is leaving the church for another, contention is wrong, but we should have been able to resolve it all in love.

Is Christianity a failure? Yes it is, 100% failure. Why, because we as people are failures. That is why I need my Savior. Jesus did not come to create an utopia, he came to rescue people like me from all the pain and evil that surrounds us. Christianity as a religion fails, but I need my savior and my friends that love him.

Fifty years in the church has made it clear that people, enticed by the evil side, will do all they can to destroy what God intends to build. I have lived through church politics and church splits. I have been the object of vicious accusations as a pastor. Friends of mine have been hurt and the world has looked on in glee. Yet I have hope.

I have grieved as friends have gone away from what we once shared in the faith. Watched as people destroyed their lives and their families, rejected all that they once held as true.

Yet as I mourn tonight I have hope. God is still the God of comfort. The life we live is vaporous, but I know that God is eternal. My God is still my shepherd, the one who carries me in his arms. My God is the one who created all of this, beyond all that I can fathom, but in control and guiding it all. I trust in the one who is above it all, who someday will make sense of the craziness and pain.

For in my deepest being I believe and cling to:

“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fail; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40.29-31



  1. beautifully written Terry. So sorry for the pain you are feeling. I pray for peace and comfort in this time of hardship.

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